I finally made myself a new layout. I was really getting sick of the old one, I don't think I ever really liked it. I do like this one though even though it has more of a Spring than a Fall feel :p
I haven't done much lately, I finally have a couple of weeks of. I should be studying, but I just can't get myself to do it.
One of my best friends asked me if I wanted to go to a concert with her, and I instantly said yes. Which is pretty stupid because she doesn't even know that I'm ill. She knows that I have been pretty tired the last couple of years but the last time she saw me I was doing ok. I'll have to email her now and tell her, which is even harder. I don't even know why besides my family I haven't told anyone yet. I know that I should at least tell school and my friends but somehow I can never find the words. Maybe if I tell everyone it becomes real or something, I don't know. I just can't seem to find the right moment to tell people. I just don't want them to treat me differently.
Last Wednesday we went to Amsterdam with school, which was really cool. We also had dinner together, but it was all a bit too much for me and it sucks that I feel like I can't even tell people. It really sucks. I hope you guys are doing ok :)

Hey everyone!
This is kinda a random update, I don't really have much to say. School has been going quite well. I'm really pleased with how everything's going so what more could you ask for. I'm still very busy with it but I feel like I've learned more in a month at uni than a whole year in High School. They know how to keep you busy :p.
Yesterday there was this girl, who's in my group, who slept through a whole discussion we had. It was so incredibly funny, I don't get how no one woke her up. It was pretty embarrassing. I think she's getting kicked out of school soon because she never handed in anything we had to do (I think we handed in about 20 things) so she'll never be able to catch us up. She and some other people are in a students' union and they have to stay up til about 3 am and when they come to school (if they do) they're so tired they can't function properly. It's pretty sad.
Yesterday I had my first driving lesson in months. It was pretty scary (it was super dark and it was raining) so I was incredibly nervous. But it wasn't that bad and I didn't forget everything I learned and I didn't crash (luckily!)
Oh btw, I downloaded the Boys Like Girls album a couple of weeks ago. It really had to grow on me, but I really love it now.
Right now I should be reading but I'm procrastinating like hell. I've found lots of funny things that I just need to share.

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Hey everyone!
Just wanted to post a quick update on everything. I went to the hospital again last Friday, I have been too busy to update before. Ok, so the doctor was really nice. He was in a much better mood than last week. He even told me that he really liked my dress (which is weird for a man to say I guess :p). Anyway, my blood test and all the other tests didn't show anything unusual. My heart was pretty much perfect, well he said that everything looked really good. I live quite healthy so I wasn't that surprised. The only unhealthy thing is that I don't really exercise enough, but I'm too busy to even go out for a couple of hours. So the doctor thinks that I have this thing called CFS which causes you to feel tired for a really long time (they can't find anything in your blood if it's CFS). It's probably caused by a virus, and most of the time it goes away but it can also be long-lasting too. So we'll just have to wait. He said that the only thing you can do is listen to your body. Right now I'm doing a little bit better. School makes me pretty tired, but everyone feels that way. I've been working harder than most people at uni so I won't have these terrible marks at the end of the year. I've been doing quite good. The test last week went well, the teacher didn't give high marks though, so I was a little bit disappointed with my mark. I have another test Tuesday so I'll try again :/. At least I didn't fail like 1/3 of our class did. I also gave a presentation yesterday with some other classmates. We tried really hard to make it as fun and understandable as possible (I worked my ass off for it!) I pretty much compared last year's budget to this year's budget on our government's cultural policy. We got the highest mark yet for a presentation so I'm really happy with that. We totally deserved it, if I say so myself.
Tomorrow I'm going to my sister's house to eat there and then we're gonna watch a movie. So what have you been up to?

I feel like updating a bit more than I used to. First of all, my second driving lesson Thursday went a lot better! I never thought it would get any better but it did. I had a different driving instructor, he was a lot nicer than my first one. He actually told me when I did something right and gave me tips that actually helped. So the next time I won't have to be so scared.
I also went to the beach and went to a place close to my home with my mom because the weather was so nice. I posted a polaroid pic of it a while back. I also helped my mom at the nursing home again. It went a lot better I think. My mom did their hair and I had to stay with them while their hair was under a hair dryer. This one woman said it was too hot so I turned it down a bit. She still thought it was too hot (they don't actually say that, they're pretty much screaming to turn it off :p) so after a while I just turned it off. And then she said that it was nice because it was hot. I wanted to laugh so hard because first she's screaming that it's too hot and the next minute she said she liked it. Oh well. And this other woman was so pissed that she tried to kick me the entire time. She had this really mean look in her eyes and supposedly she's always like that. I wasn't too hurt about it because I know it's frustrating not to have any control over your own life anymore.
I guess everyone updated about Michael Jackson already, so I will do too :p. It's always weird for me to hear any news on Madonna or MJ because my mom was born in August 1958 like them too. And seeing them doing all this weird stuff and then seeing my mom being so different (thank God). I think it's really sad that he died, but the person who arranged 50 concerts (I know how much he hated touring so this must have been so stressful for him) kind of killed him. I hate how everyone's kissing his ass now, though the last couple of 15 years Michael Jackson was actually a bad word. I feel like people that call themselves his fans now could have been a bit more supportive when he was going through such hard times. So I won't kiss his ass now.
So here I come with some recommendations because I'm bored. One of my fave movies ever is on youtube with English subs (it's a French movie). I also recommend 'Brideshead Revisited', which is actually a book but they also made a movie of it. I saw it a year ago and loved it, I still have to buy it though.
As for music I really enjoy 'Bat For Lashes' right now. It's kind of indie music (I hate indie :p) but I really like them.
And also a huuuge thank you to Timmy for buying me 2 months of a free paid account. You are amazing. I don't know what I did to deserve that. I actually do have the money to do it myself but I don't have a creditcard or anything. But thank you so much! I owe you.
In about 15 minutes Pride & Prejudice will be on tv so I'm going to watch that. I loved the book so I'm sure I'll love the movie too.

don't have much else to say. Hope you guys are fine.

Hey everyone,

So some of you might know that I really want to study Graphic Design for a while. So Tuesday is the big day of my application for admission. I’m pretty much done with my portfolio and I’m confident about the stuff I’ve made. I hope they think it’s creative enough though, cause I think I’m pretty good technically compared to other people that they’ve accepted.
There’s two projects that I still have to do at home though. It won’t be much work, but it’s just hard to think of something.
The first project is called ‘my place, my thing’. It is something that you introduce yourself with and it has to show my vision on an artistic level. It shows how I see my environment and you don’t have to take it literally. So for example it can be your favorite place in the house or your favorite thing to do. I can choose to paint, take pictures or whatever I want. I had this idea to do a photoshoot on my vacation, but that’s after the application so I have no idea what to do :/
The second project is to make a manual of something that I can teach people. I have no idea what to choose though.
The problem is that there’s a million people that apply and you really have to distinguish yourself from others. I’m not afraid about the motivation part.
So I was hoping if anyone had any tips or suggestions?

How was everyone's weekend? Mine was pretty good. I worked really hard last week (for school of course) so I guess I didn't have to feel guilty for that. Friday I went to see 'Bride Wars' with my sister. I thought it was really cute but not nearly as good as 'Confessions Of A Shopaholic' which I saw 2 weeks ago.
Saturday one of my best friends turned 18 so I went to visit her. I gave her a DVD that you can't get anywhere here, so I had ordered it. She really liked it, so that was good. We're both kind of obsessing over that movie :p
So today I started reading for my English Literature thing. I finished 'The Catcher in the Rye' which Cassie recommended. I really enjoyed reading it! It was different from what I expected though. I don't think I've seen the word depressing so much in one book though. No, but it was really good. I'm reading 1984 now. I don't really like it lol. But I already put it on my list so I have to finish it now. I think I'll probably end up reading the summary on internet. It's not really my thing I guess.
I hope your weekend was good too. What have you been up to?

Hi everyone. Another entry. I finally started working on that paper that I had to do with my friend. It's about stereotypes and how they have influenced people throughout the years. And how they've changed (especially in art: literature, paintings etc.) So if anyone has any interesting subjects, or tips. please help :p
I have no idea if I will finish it. I also have to finish my english literature list but I don't think I'll have time to read everything. Which sucks, cause we if the teacher finds out you haven't, you'll get a bad mark. And I don't have any problems lying to him but if he finds out :/
I also uploaded a song for you guys because I felt like it. It's my fave right now, it's so beautiful. I uploaded it to Zshare zo you don't have to download it to listen to it :)
I still haven't made pics of my bracelet and my dress, well I tried to, but my camera makes things turn out so blurry. So I'll try and make some with my parents camera, which is a lot better. So what has everyone been up to?
I can't wait til I have vacation which is the end of April I think. I'm going to the south of France with my family, which is my fave place on the earth! I can't wait.
oh I also went to the cinema with my sister on Friday. We went to Confessions Of A Shopaholic. I was expecting some cheesy movie but it was incredibly funny and I even felt like I did learn a bit more about the value of money and that you can't just buy everything you want. So everyone should see it, even guys.

I usually don't post entries when I don't feel too good but I don't have anyone to talk to.
I keep on procrastinating work I have to do for school. I've done some stuff today, but not nearly enough. I just hate how I've let it get to his point. I mean, I have to pass this year. So if anyone has any tips to stay focused, that would help although I think lots of people have problems with it :p
There's also some good things. I'm typing this on my new computer now, the old one was 9 years old and half of that time I've had problems with it. It was full of viruses and it wasn't working like it should. I'm pretty much putting stuff on it from my laptop.
I also got a dress for this sort of 'prom thing' we have in May. I never imagined that I would find one cause I'm so picky. I also got a bracelet for my 18th birthday from my aunt. My birthday is June, but she basically gives all her cousins stuff from auctions which aren't in June so I got one now. It's very expensive and it's from the 1920's. I usually don't wear a lot of jewelry at all, but it's too expensive not to wear. It's kind of ridiculous I would never buy anything like that myself.
I also went to Amsterdam yesterday with school. That's our capitol city. I've only been there once but I was pretty young back then. I can believe why tourists always think our country is so beautiful. Most of the time they've only been to Amsterdam :p It's gorgeous, with lots of old buildings. I can assure you that the rest of Holland looks like shit.
I feel like uploading and making icons so much right now -.-' I've got 500+ left to upload or something like that. I'm so busy so I'll probably be posting them in about 2 or 3 weeks.
I also applied for a sort of college, for graphic design. They only accept about 10% of the people who apply so I don't think I will be one of them but I really hope so.

I was tagged by itscharmattack to make a top 10 of songs that I'm into right now. I had a hard time picking 10, but here they are in no specific order. PS: If you want to download a song, you can ask me, I'll upload it.

Bitter:Sweet - The Mating Game
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I was watching an episode of grey's anatomy about 6 months ago and when I heard this song I tried to remember the lyrics and then downloaded it. I instantly fell in love with it, which is very rare because I'm picky. I really like this song because it's electronic pop with kind of a jazzy/soul vibe. Music by Bitter:Sweet is always really relaxing and has a good vibe.

Christina Aguilera - Falling In Love Again
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This is one of my fave songs by Christina. This song is a whole new sound for her, and I think she should stick to it. I'm really into electronic stuff right now, and this is just amazing. It's over 8 minutes, but yet not boring at all.

Dana Glover - A Reason
youtube || download
I couldn't find a video of this song, so I uploaded it on zshare so you can still listen to it (I also did that with some other songs ;). Anyway, I think Dana is an amazing singer and her lyrics are pretty good too. I still can't believe that she didn't have a big breakthrough.

Dana Glover - Almost Had It All
youtube || download
This is my favorite song by Dana Glover. I really don't have much to say about it. I hope you'll enjoy it as much as I do.

Ivy Levan - Shot Thru the Heart
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I looove Ivy, I think she's very talented. This song has been my fave by her and I've been listening to it a lot for about 2 years and it's still not boring.

K-otic - I Can't Explain
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I used to really like this band when I was younger. It's definitly a guilty pleasure :p just fun pop music. I recently started to listen to their songs again.

K-otic - Sorry
youtube || download
This is actually a pretty good song in my opinion. Lyrics are a bit cheesy, but it's catchy.

Nicole Richie - Dandelion
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Just a cute and fun song. Nicole can actually sing (Paris can't). I've had this song for years and I still like it.

Nirvana - Love Buzz
youtube || download
I've always been a sucker for Nirvana. I recently downloaded this song and I really like it.

Pink - Heartbreaker
youtube || download
I've always loved Pink. I just downloaded this song about a week ago. It's one of her demos and it's really good in my opinion :p

I guess I'm supposed to tag other people now. I'll just tag everyone who reads this :p

How is everyone doing? I never have anything to talk about in my journal entries. I'm very busy with school. I have no idea how I'm gonna get through this year but I'm trying. I need to read many books so if anyone has any recommendations for English literature, I'd be thankful!
Talking about recommendations, I never ask for music recommendations, but I am getting a bit bored with my own playlist. I am very picky but I think I'm open minded too for new music. I don't like hiphop and rapmusic though ;)
The proof that I've sunk pretty deep is that I even ripped one of the old cd's that I have of a dutch band called K-otic. (Think Spice Girls/Backstreet Boys). It's a guilty pleasure but I must say it's pretty catchy. Much better than that Disney crap. Though I must say that Demi Lovato is alright. I uploaded it cause I have nothing better to do. You can preview it here and download it here.
Btw, is there anyone that still has only 6 userpics on LJ, or am I the only one? :p I'm getting pretty tired of it. I don't know why I felt like saying that XD. Anyway, that's it.

I just found out that I had the previous once since january XD. So I decided to change it. I'm really happy with it, although the background looks kinda weird. I made it myself :/ bla. I like the header though. Let me know what you think. What has everyone been up to?

I have to do so much for school but I keep procrastinating! ah. Anyway, everyone in my class has to make a magazine about themselves and I have no idea what to put in it. If anyone has any interesting/creative ideas, please share. I was thinking of interviewing ivy, which is easy through myspace. I will have to ask her first though XD
My bday is also coming up soon, but I'm not that excited about that. I will get a polaroid camera though, which will be the most amazing present ever.

I just had over 2 weeks off and I can't believe I have to go to school again on Tuesday. I hate it more than I can put into words :p
I didn't do much in the last few weeks but I definitely feel a lot better, sleeping late and all. And of course the weather is getting way better.
I hate the fact that I planned on doing so much things for school and ended up doing nothing. I read an 122 paged in 30 minutes, that can't be good I guess XD. But it was French and I already read the summary so I hope I'll be fine.
So what else did I do... oh I made a painting in my aunt's studio. I think it was my third. Anyway, it looked alright but I'm still not completely satisfied, but I guess I'll never be. I also visited an exposition of paintings which was very interesting but it felt kinda weird cause I was one of the youngest there.
I went shopping yesterday, on my own (which I prefer anyway). I bought this really cute dress, and I'm just in love with it, it almost didn't fit but I had to have it XD. I also spotted some kind of 'celebrity' like I always do, and nobody ever notices them. Anyway, it was some porn actress whom I had seen on a talk show a few times. She looked awful and tiny lol. I don't even know her name but whatever.
Seriously, I always get attention of 40+ men, and it's gross. I was eating something, and he couldn't stop staring, I was like O_o so I went away lol.
What else can I say... oh my niece is getting married in a month. First wedding in 9 years, so definitely looking forward to that. I think I already know what I'm going to wear XD.
I think I'm going to watch War Inc. tomorrow. It's still downloading.
I'm thinking of making a cd of my favorite songs and artists just because I feel like it. I don't care if no one ends up downloading it. But kind of like a soundtrack of my life I guess.
ok so I guess that was my random post. I should post pictures soon.

So my computer decided to act all stupid today. I'm on my laptop right now, which is also working fine so I shouldn't really complain I guess. But I just felt like making graphics, and now I can't -.-'. So my dad already called someone to fix it, but I don't know when it'll be done.
So tell me what everyone has been up to lately. And just random stuff, anything! I'm too bored right now :p and please add these communities where I'm posting at if you haven't yet.
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